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Mummy Guilt

 

Ditching plans with a friend, calling in sick at work, forgetting a family members birthday, gorging on four bags of crisps when you’re supposed to be on a diet (just me?!) The list goes on. Definitions of ‘guilt’ in the dictionary includeremorseful awareness of  having done something wrong or violating a rule’  and a ‘bothered conscience’. These feelings are something we are all familiar with (unless you are a sociopath or just mean) A conscience makes us human.

I believe as parents we are programmed to feel more guilt towards our children, it’s important so we can love and raise our precious creations well. So although it can be positive, the ‘mum guilt’ I have experienced in the past and still sometimes do now is RIDICULOUS. I know for a fact it’s not just me, ‘mum guilt’ is at an all time high.

Parenting is nowadays discussed much more freely and publicly, especially since the uprise of social media platforms, – which is fantastic for people like myself who love to talk about being a mum and listen to/read what others say, – but it can also have its major downfalls. In the ‘good ol’  days’ when you had a kid, you just simply GOT ON WITH IT. There is a hell of a lot of pressure on us mama’s nowadays and social media has a lot to do with it. We all see the ‘perfect mums’ on Facebook, Instagram and Pinterest, – updating us on well behaved/advanced little William, showing off their homemade cookies and crafts, beautifully created lunch boxes full of healthy snacks in the shape of animals and pictures of extravagant days out or holidays (says me who’s just blogged all about my family holiday!) Being exposed to constant reminders that we might not be doing enough for our kids makes us feel terribly guilty. Sometimes it’s forgotten that what we see online are just ‘show reels’, life isn’t always that perfect behind the scenes, little William has toddler tantrums and had fish fingers for dinner last night too!

Having a baby also means constant choices and decisions to make, from what kind of birth you have, if you breastfeed, if you want to co-sleep to later decisions regarding how you discipline and school. As everyone is completely different, this leaves room for judgement, which can lead to worrying we are doing the right thing. Sometimes situations are out of our control, such as an emergency c-section, not bonding straight away with your baby or having to go back to work early to support the family, – and yes you guessed it.. GUILT GUILT BLOODY GUILT!

When my son, Lucas was a baby I was young, naive and frankly didn’t have a bloody clue what I was doing. I felt guilty for EVERYTHING. I was constantly overwhelmed with irrational worry that I wasn’t the ‘best’, just because I fed him a baby jar or didn’t take him out or play with him enough that day. It absolutely consumed me. I touched more on the subject of becoming a first time mum in my first blog post which you can read here – First blog post/Introduction – Every Cloud, Mummy https://everycloudmummy.wordpress.com/2016/09/12/first-blog-post/

With experience and more confidence in myself, bringing up baby number two – Ava, has been rather different. I have learnt to ‘chill out’, cut myself some serious slack and not be as bothered by what others say and do. I am definitely a happier, more relaxed mum to my kids. I may not bake often or have creative bone in my body, it’s a rare occasion I get out the paint and play doh and I definitely can’t afford yearly trips to Disneyworld, but I make sure to remind myself that I’m doing a good job. Lucas and Ava are given heaps of affection, kept clean and well-dressed, fed with (mostly) home-cooked healthy food, taught manners and are always put first. Surely these are the things that really matter?

I’m not an expert by any means and always learning, but my advice to new mummy’s or anybody not feeling good enough, – please don’t compare yourself to anyone else (especially not Pinterest Susan) and carry on doing the best you can for you and your family. Most ‘mum guilt’ is normal and will unfortunately never go away, but we should all try to stop sweating the small stuff and give ourselves the credit we deserve.

Til next time,

Roxanne x

14 thoughts on “Mummy Guilt

  1. So true. I feel guilty ALL OF THE TIME, I sometimes feel guilty about feeling guilty!! I think as Mums we will always experience the guilt but you’re right, don’t sweat the small stuff is my motto for this year. None of it matters, we just need to remind ourselves of that from time to time. Thanks for linking up to #fortheloveofblog

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  2. I felt that I started to chill out more too, after I settled into to being a mother of two. It’s hard no to let the guilt bother you sometimes though, but life really is too short and we are all doing the best we can. I totally gorge on multiple bags of crisps far too often!

    #BestandWorst

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  3. Erghh mum guilt is the worst isn’t it, I was the same with you with my 1st but gave myself a stern talking to with my 2nd not to be so hard on myself. You are doing great though, thanks for linking up to this weeks #bestandworst

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  4. Ahhh, such an important message! YES, I have been there. I think that I left my body and levitated for a moment last week when I checked in on my 4 year old twins in the bathroom after I heard out of control giggles. When I walked in, I saw that my daughter had put an entire container of wet wipes into the potty and had not an OUNCE of remorse about her crime. I screamed so loudly that I strained my vocal cords and frightened her half to death (because I am not a screamer). Guilt guilt guilt. The guilt is my penance, I guess!
    #bestandworst

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