I have been looking at this bloody screen for a while now.
Of course I have also been procrastinating by clicking back to facebook, pottering around and finding music playlists on YouTube. Does anyone else do this? I can’t even clean my kitchen or have a bath without a ‘task appropriate’ playlist. This evening I chose the new Beauty and The Beast soundtrack (I watched this yesterday, it’s incredible..) and this gave me NO writing motivation whatsoever. Instead I just ended up googling the lyrics to ‘Gaston’ so I could sing (badly) along to it.
I have come across the ‘Epic Motivational Music Playlist’ and although it’s majorly intense and I feel like I should be getting ready for battle, I believe it may be working because I am finally typing something that makes slight sense (I’m not that crazy, honest!)
Anyway, the point of this post is to explain the radio silence recently. I have been so quiet on the blog front because I have REALLY struggled to write anything.
At the start of the year I was bursting with ideas and almost every spare moment I had was spent typing away. I suppose life got in the way and amongst other reasons I lost my blogging mojo . The ideas and intentions have still been there but every time I have tried to write them down my mind goes blank. I don’t want to blog half hardheartedly about crap because I feel I have to, so I believe it’s better to take a little break and just post when it comes naturally.
Last month I also stupidly read a thread which consisted of keyboard warriors absolutely bashing ‘mummy bloggers’. Most of the comments were ignorant, bitter and hurtful and I am embarrassed to say it did actually made me question my blog and social media. I was feeling a bit down anyway and I started to wonder –
‘Who actually cares what i write about?’
‘Do I share too much?’
‘Am I coming across as a bit of a dick?’
I have also learnt that the blogging world is so large, can be pretty intimidating and it’s really easy to compare yourself to others. This of course can lower your confidence, ‘comparison is the thief of joy’ and all that…
I have now snapped out of it and decided that it’s really silly to care about any of this stuff. I’m focusing on my own reasons for blogging and the personal achievements so far from this journey. I’m quite obviously not a modern Bronte sister and my grammar is far from perfect, BUT I have always loved writing. Blogging is a bit like therapy and I enjoy expressing my thoughts and feelings and talking about things I care about, or that may relate to or help others.
So I hope this random, quick post explains the little break. Sorry if I DO come across as a bit of a dick but I’m not going anywhere quite yet.
Til Next Time,